Our Loovvvveee story

First off let me tell you where we both were in our lives at the time we met. I was fresh out of a 5 year relationship and still thinking he was "The One". Even though our relationship was a pretty good high school romance (lmao) neither of us were truly committed to each other and we both were ummm I'd say more or less obsessed with each other than actually in love. Same goes with Keagan, his story is very similar but oh so very different at the same time. His story is very personal but I can say that it ended in a horrible tragedy and the whole experiance has, I believe, made him loved harder and know that everyday can be your last, so dont take people or things in life for granted! With all that being said lets get to the happier side, enough sad because even though I try not to be one, I am most def a crier!! So where was I, oh so while we both werent at all looking for anything serious, just a little something to keep our mind off our ex's, we found eachother. My best friend aka my sis(thats what we have called eachother since the 7th grade)

Yes we really are always that silly together! And no we usually dont wear that much make-up!Hah

well her boyfriend had happen to be going to college in Lima, OH. He was living in the dorms for his first few semesters with his roommate named Keagan;) so after getting to knowing eachother Travis (sis bf) had realized that Keagan was pretty "down in the dumbs" in the girlfriend area, so he called up his girl friend Maddie (my sis) and said "Hey we really need to find my roommate a girl, can you get on that?" lol I was of course staying the night at her house(like always) and she told me the story and said he would be a great guy to help you get over your ex. I thought to myself "I'm totally not ready to start something else, but hey it might be nice to have someone else to keep my mind distracted" So what did I do next?? Yep thats right Facebooked the sucker!! Of course, what else do people do nowadays to check out the scoop on someone! haha He was VERRYYY cute buttttt there were 2 things...one- his ex girlfriends were outragiously beautiful and tall, well if you know me you know I'm NEITHER!! and secondly- his last name wasss...PUSS!! Okay well really its pronounced pUse like fuse only with a P! hahah horrible example I know sorry. And who would have ever thought that one day it would be my future childrens last name!! Love it! Again anyways... we exchanged numbers and right away clicked. We both had similar backgrounds (divorced parents, crazy past ralaionships, both needing someone to talkto) and it was just so easy to talk to him. So the month went on and we were txting, calling, and emailing eachother everyday allday. Finally it was time to meet.

We set it up as a double date with Maddie and Travis, it just seemed like the cool thing to do, to go to the movies. Horrible idea I tell ya, we couldnt really talk and it just wasnt the best convo when we did. I thought to myself "WTH! We had GREAT conversation on the phone but in person its sooo lame!" So we kinda slowed the talking down and then didnt communicate at all. He was mad about it, maybe even blamed himself, and I on the other hand was a dumby and went back to my ex for a few months :( As a few months went on I REALLY started to miss him and think about him A LOT!! I shot him a txt and it was just like ol times :) We gave it another shot and hung out again. This time it wasss MUCH better! We clicked again! I was gitty and super happy to have him back. We took it very slowwwww.

Well a few months later things sped up lighting fast!! I was super sick and silly ol me I thought maybe I had the swine flu, I mean hey, it was going round and all! Hahah well my other best friend Ashley was staying the night to take care of me and she says "Hey your boobies are getting alot bigger?! How'd ya do that?" hahah I said "Your crazy Im just about to start. Thats all it is!" Then I thought and thought and thought some more. Boy I hadnt had my period in about 2 months. That was very strange to me since I had been on the pill and all. Don't ask why I hadn't noiced it the first month. I had recently just switched birthcontrols and thought that was the reasoning, hey it sounded good at the time! Well ya know when your young and silly it sounded like a good idea to go buy a pregnacy test just for the heck of it! Not sure why I did cause I really just thought it was the swine, but Ash had convinced me to go get one just incase. Off to the store we went. I called Maddie right after I took the test(while waiting on results) quicky explained the craziness going on and she laughed! Not but a min later both lines showed up!! Ummmm what does that mean????!!! No way hose a!! I wasnt pregnant because the Docs had always told me I couldnt get pregnant!! This was certainly not happening it was a sick joke!!



Maybe a bad picture?? But at this point it felt like I was going 100 mph on a rollercoaster!!



What to do next?? Who do I tell?? What do I say?? I told my aunt, ma, and dad. They were all nervous for me but deep down excited, I knew that. Even though I had been a sobbing mess telling them!! I have always been sooo scared to dissapoint my parentals and boy was this a dissapointment!! No university degree, no marriage, no house, no nothing besides a boyfriend I had only known a year!! Ahhhhh well there was only one more thing to do....tell Keagan.

Maddie, Ashley and I all got in the car and drove and hour and a half to Keagans place to tell him. He knew right away something was up! Im usually loud and crazy when Im with my girls but we were all so very quiet. I told him what was up and the look on his face said it all! He was felling the same way I was...we werent ready!! Yes, we liked eachother alot but we both werent in the right place to raise a child!! We talk about it alot, had anger, happiness, sadness, pretty much everyfeeling we had inside us, we felt it! In the end we decided to keep it, I'd be lying if I said there was ever any doubt in my mind to keep the baby or not! As the weeks went on we grew more and more excited and actually......fell in love! :) The whole baby story is yet to come! Thats a whole other LONGGGG post! Stay tuned!